frakking papers.

I am tired, in that deep lethargic way where my mind wants to curl up in a tiny corner & go away from everything.
Especially my history paper, which...oh, it's just so frustrating in so many little ways, & it's one of those projects that I'm interested in vaguely but just cannot make myself buckle down & do anything.
I have vague thesis ideas, & vague plans for structure, & vague knowledge about things I know I should know more about, & a totally concrete aversion to the entire thing.

I'm just so over school, & this--even though I have two other classes--this paper feels like the last giant hurdle I have to wrangle a way over before I get to be finished with something, you know? & it's just...staring me in the face & being implacable & frustrating. Agh.