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Oct. 25th, 2004 04:02 pmi feel the was-hungry-didn't-eat-now-stomach-is-fucked-up sickness coming on. am endeavouring to beat it with french bread and muenster. also qfc yakisoba which is fake and nasty and yet oh so good.
thucydides scares me. well, not so much thucydides as the incredible and terrifying relevance everything he's saying has to now. everything. can a democracy oversee a tryannical empire? if it does, is it still a democracy? about policy during the peloponsian war, about cleon and the demagogues--oh lord, the speeches they make scare me so much. the rhetoric is so blindingly brilliant that it scares me, because they honestly don't care about rights and wrongs. the question is not whether they are guilty or innocent; it is what use they are to athens. about the strategies and personal machinations, about the total loss of morals during the plague and how bloody pessimistic thucydides is about everything, and how he's usually right. and how everything is happening again--now. and a million other times in history. dr. madsen keeps making fake-freudian slips that bring home how alike everything is, and this scares me. scratch that. it terrifies me.
also my neck is twisted and tight and my head hurts and i am feeling overwhelmed again with all the stuff i have to do all of a sudden, and all i really want to do right now is go home and curl up on the couch and fall asleep with the knowledge that my parents are cooking some good home food downstairs and that after we eat and talk i can sleep for an entire day.
thucydides scares me. well, not so much thucydides as the incredible and terrifying relevance everything he's saying has to now. everything. can a democracy oversee a tryannical empire? if it does, is it still a democracy? about policy during the peloponsian war, about cleon and the demagogues--oh lord, the speeches they make scare me so much. the rhetoric is so blindingly brilliant that it scares me, because they honestly don't care about rights and wrongs. the question is not whether they are guilty or innocent; it is what use they are to athens. about the strategies and personal machinations, about the total loss of morals during the plague and how bloody pessimistic thucydides is about everything, and how he's usually right. and how everything is happening again--now. and a million other times in history. dr. madsen keeps making fake-freudian slips that bring home how alike everything is, and this scares me. scratch that. it terrifies me.
also my neck is twisted and tight and my head hurts and i am feeling overwhelmed again with all the stuff i have to do all of a sudden, and all i really want to do right now is go home and curl up on the couch and fall asleep with the knowledge that my parents are cooking some good home food downstairs and that after we eat and talk i can sleep for an entire day.
