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I'm going insane. I shouldn't even be here, I should be working on my paper, but I feel all lost about it. This week is apparently shit week for everyone, people getting dumped & having roommate drama &...shit. Everywhere. It sucks. I have been on the verge of having a breakdown & crying for days now, for no particular reason, just overwhelment. (Is overwhelment a word? It ought to be.)

There are people that are keeping me sane, though, thank God, though few of them read this anyway.

My life will be better after the play opens, & even less crazy after it's over (though I will miss the people when it's done).

I still haven't heard from Greenstage. I think I'm going to start assuming they don't want me.

I got carded today...I think perhaps my first time. I was pleased. It'll be even better when it's carding for drinks, not lighters.

I have been antsy & itching for a fight, too. I mock-fought in the hallways during break, but it wasn't real, because I'd probably be dead if it were, since those boys are much bigger than me. I really just want to wrestle with somebody now. Physical contact, but nothing so benign as cuddling (though a little of that later might be nice).

Dammit! I need to work on my paper. ARGH.