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I am so distracted. Both yesterday & today during rehearsal my brain felt entirely elsewhere; I'd be onstage, watching Le Beau do his speech about wrestling or something, & my thoughts would be somewhere else entirely. It's not like I'm thinking important things either. I feel like there are a million different things flitting around in my head, & all but a few of them are cripplingly trivial; the ones that are worth thinking about really shouldn't be thought about when I'm onstage trying to do something that at least resembles acting like Touchstone.
I think the underlying problem is that I am chronically sleep-deprived; I haven't gone to bed before one in the morning in weeks, & last night was the AYLI sleepover, which meant I didn't get to sleep until 4:30am (the most awful timing ever, but totally worth it: it was girly gossip, boys crashing the party, ouija & people freaking out about the spirit world, dancing, & brownies among other things).
I think having an audience will help this play more than we realize, & we've already sort of realized that. It really is fabulous. Everyone is incredible. I don't think I'm doing terribly myself, but things will fall together much better once my head is a little more focused. Besides the utterly trivial thoughts my brain persists on thinking about, most of my worries involve homework, of which I have far too much, & of which I have done perilously little. So. Time to get on that, then. Oh, college.
I think the underlying problem is that I am chronically sleep-deprived; I haven't gone to bed before one in the morning in weeks, & last night was the AYLI sleepover, which meant I didn't get to sleep until 4:30am (the most awful timing ever, but totally worth it: it was girly gossip, boys crashing the party, ouija & people freaking out about the spirit world, dancing, & brownies among other things).
I think having an audience will help this play more than we realize, & we've already sort of realized that. It really is fabulous. Everyone is incredible. I don't think I'm doing terribly myself, but things will fall together much better once my head is a little more focused. Besides the utterly trivial thoughts my brain persists on thinking about, most of my worries involve homework, of which I have far too much, & of which I have done perilously little. So. Time to get on that, then. Oh, college.
