Renaissance Girl

Tech weekend is done--I was at the theater all Friday night, then about 9am-11pm both days. I pretty much feel like a walking cloud of fog. That feels terrible. Oh, I need so much more sleep than this...& even with the day off tomorrow, I still feel like homework is eating me alive!
There is a mock trial in History 201 this week--I was the only one of my group who read anything over the weekend, & I was locked in a booth for 90% of my waking hours, so. Agh.
There is a paper due also on that same day...vaguely about the trial. It's really stupid. I got an extension just in case.
I have a Moby Dick test on Thursday which I am paralyzed with fear over, read: am not studying for because I think it's pointless. I will read my notes tomorrow. That's pretty much all I can do.
I have outlines due on Wednesday in PNW.
Nothing big due in Physics, thank god.

PLUS ALSO doing TECH for the rest of the WEEK. We don't have tech tonight--so I'm running Vagina Monologue auditions instead. Yikes. (Which are going really well though!)


Here. Don't listen to my whining! Learn about Secret Service names instead! Obama's was Renegade, how rad is that? Michelle's was Renaissance, so, equally cool & fitting. I am so THRILLED about this new first family. They are gonna rock the White House so hard.

I haven't used this list style in a long time. Let's see...

+ I got nearly perfect on my Asian Religions midterm. Go me!
- I have a lot of homework due tomorrow: AR paper, at least four chapters of reading, response questions, & reading "Death of a Salesman" for Thistory.
+ Belated Cinco de Mayo celebration at the boys' tonight! No, I don't like tequila, but I like the boys, & I like their neighbors. Sweet.
+ Am done with the first design project!
+ Am having a chiropractor appointment today, which I am probably more excited about than I should be.
- My appeal for fifth year aid got denied--which means no scholarship money for winter & spring next year. SU, you really need to figure out your effing budget already.
- I have more credits to finish than I thought I would have...which is okay, except for the fact that schedule-wise, they don't work out at all.
- This school is run really, really badly sometimes.
+ More Ghost Sonata this weekend! (But I am satisfied with it all, really, & ready to be done.)


...so overall, not so bad. Most of those damn negatives are from me trying to be an overachiever. I'm considering dropping history, because a) I can't get the schedule to work at all (one class I need is at the exact same time as another I need--who plans these things?!); & b) all fifteen credits I have left are classes I just don't want to take, & do I really want to suffer through the time & money for things I won't enjoy? On the other hand, I'm so damn close that giving up now is practically painful. Plus I'm ridiculously stubborn. So I'm not sure what to do. I'm talking to Dr. E soon I hope, which will probably fix my life, as it usually does.

Time for that chiropractic appointment. Oo! And I went to the gym last night--which I'm feeling, yikes--but I felt all workout-y & productive. I want my Ireland-style abs back! I will be hardcore. And then run away & join the circus, which is what I really want anyway.

Here's what makes today great: GS rehearsal. A photo shoot we found out about this morning, which meant mad runs to Value Village at lunchtime, but nonetheless a photo shoot, in which I got to be dead. Fantastic scenes with vampiric cooks. Seducing someone through household chores (who knew talking about sorting laundry could be so sexy?). Having a really awesome director.

Even having to walk to downtown to catch my bus was great--the night wasn't all that cold yet, it was clear, & I got to talk to Joel. Winning all round.

What makes today not great? That I still have history reading to do. Eeeyuck. What else? That it contains sentences like the following (though I have to say I also find it hopelessly amusing):

"In the context of poststructuralist claims to critical practice, this seems more recuperable than the clandestine restoration of subjective essentialism."

(I feel like postmodern philosophy just killed itself on my paper.)

Directing is hard. I am feeling a little like I have no freaking clue what to do next lost at the moment. It's this damn communication barrier between knowing what I want & translating it into how to tell them what I mean--that's what's hard. Yargh.

I suppose I will talk to Rosa tomorrow.



I am thinking it was very stupid of me to be a triple major--but I am too stubborn & too proud to quit. (Mostly it is just required history classes that I do not want to take, & make up 15 credits of what I have left; I am very resistant & petulant & annoyed.)

Today I must to homework. Today I will also go grocery shopping, & make bread with Elspeth. Guess which of those I will enjoy more?